Pieces
Nov 07 2000: 
I like Tetsu.
That's an understatement, actually. I love Tetsu. He's almost my god, but it's a different way because you don't love your god like that. It's like everything about him is holy, and you just have the urge to want to hold him as he sleeps.
But of course, like the god he is to me, he's untouchable, so to keep this feeling down, I have the urge to destroy him as well.
Anyway, he's too beautiful to exist. Such a person should be destroyed before he turns ugly, nee? Anyway he already has changed, from last time till now. Time's flow is inevitable.

So... 
What has that got to do with the song? *sweatdrops* 
and yeah, before you think I'm a psychotic, think about the philosophy inside it. Sometimes things are just so beautiful, but you know you can never own it. It's not the crazy "either I own it or no one else will", because that is posessive. In my case, it's because it's so holy that it can never belong to me, just like Jesus will never love anyone in a special way.
Anyway, I'm too ugly to be loved.. .^^;
And there's no such thing as 'if'. (another reason why I hate fanfiction of mary sues. *shudder*)

"Tetsu ga suki" "Tetsu ga hoshii" "Tetsu to kekkon shitai" konna goku, dare ga hanasenai? 
It's the intensity of the feelings and the way which it is viewed. 

Sometimes he's so beautiful I just wish that I can hug him and see if he's really there...
*cough* but then again, he'd pull away fast, so I can't kill him like that. :P

Well.... In case you haven't noticed... The PV of the song is ... ^^
it has haido killing Tetchan!
When I first heard of this 'famous' PV, I had noooo idea what it was gonna be like... ^^; In my imagination it was a really dark thing, something like RG veda, and the knife is anything but a dagger. A bit longish, and more shiny, in my mind... ^^; And inside, they were wearing black leather (you know, like those manga clothes^^;;;;) --> note: I didn't KNOW how they looked like at that time.
Then, when I saw the PV itself (btw, the fist time I saw it was a 5MB Real video.), I almost cried. (like "mado"...) 
Especially when Tetchan falls.
Actually, this song got me to like them. *pokes you* Go and read White Feathers part one... ^^;  Actually, its' only about August that I had the notion "The sky is a mere icon if you already have a home". But since I heard this song,  I almost went berserk. ^^; I had never felt like I was being loved except in this song when it's playing and it's dark in the room on my bed... It's the kind of warmth that you can sleep yourself into. (or maybe I just need to get laid.)

But anyway, The PV reflects the true meaning of the song...... 
It's something like "I want to watch over you forever, but you are already all right....those gentle hands are waiting" uh.... You see... So it's a very sad song.... (and just describes my feeling towards Tetchan perfectly)


I love this scene... Tetchan is always beautiful, but he's really beautiful like that. ^///^
What's more... The PV's blue! My favorite color ^^.. ..It gives that sort of feeling, something like the sky.. .donna no?

The infamous... *laughs* (ever thought that he might be saying something nonsensical? What IS he actually saying? --> hido bad at reading mouth^^;) 
Maybe he's saying "Tonight. My room. Wear Red Teddy." (courtesy of Jara) *giggles*

don't know why... I liked this scene alot. I didn't make any of Kenchan's because there's no special thing inside it... ^^;; ; 
In this, Yuki looks like in a funeral procession... I like that... Somehow it reminds me of Death ^^;
Maybe it's the umbrella...
Oh... and I love Dream Hunters (OT)

The knife will kill the one you love... (almost typed "wan" ^^;)
The knife has a 100 year curse. It makes a good story, no?
If it's in RPG format, "You are the chosen one! You must save your beloved!" (nandayo...^^;)

*hugs bolster*
Actually, when listening to the song, I thought it was happy...
Not really as in happy, but so sappy your heart could break (^^;I dont wanna rap.. but for fun, it'll go "not really happy, but so sappy you flabby could go wabby)

But after seeing the PV, there was a new meaning to it. Why did they kill the ones they love?
Soon I discovered... "ah, watashi no kakera yo"--> if it's a 'happy' song, why 'kakera'?  that wasone thing I never really understood until I saw the PV.. .even now I'm still not sure^^;

....But still.. .^^;; ; I really, really like that song... 
if only I can kill Tetchan! kya!

As a side note, I only made screen caps if they won't turn out crappy...^^; And what is it with cacausians! *swaetdrop* I swear! The guy in Dive to Blue looks sooo... dorky. ..^^; Does that mean if you're a cacausian, you can become a model in Japan? Damn, I wanna be one then! (note sarcasm)
And and and... .In Dive to Blue.. .Tetchan.. .^^; So cute... (I mean his turning and prancing about, idiot! What are you thinking of!)
and he makes a very good woman. ^^ Although he's good enough as a man... 

Oh and in case you're wondering, I already own Chronicles. ^^)v

lastly.. (nothing to do with laruku)
hido: Kya~ kimi ga sukiiiiii~
veggie: Boku mo boku ga suki~
 

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